Maybe since that big thing happened, I’ve been giving life more attention. Not because I want to, but because.. I am preparing for the future. Since when that I always see the future, but never enjoy the moment? Everything is about ‘for me when I’m 25 so I’ll already have a permanent job’ ‘for me when I’m ready enough to be a wife’ ‘for me later on so I acn have something to tell’. But does this all really important?
Really, I should’ve just enjoy the moment, just let everything be. And I tried too. Am still struggling, but suddenly your spark hits mine. It feels so refreshing for someone who’s been feeling nothing these years. I’ve got my confidence back. I see the road clearer. I think I am happier.
But you are with somebody else.
It’s not your fault, really. But I am blaming myself, why did I fall for someone that I don’t even know? Why did make up stories in my mind about me and you? Why did I get my hopes high up? Why did I fall too easily?
I am sorrt I am feeling this way. I won’t take you. I won’t take anything. But please, let me be happy when I am around you. Please tell me you are okay with me being around you, and just be friends like I am with everyone else.
I hope I can be that with you too.
Thank you for coming into my life.
And God, please help me forget this feeling, because I know I can’t take something that’s already been others’.
Saturday, July 28, 2018
Sunday, April 1, 2018
The story of RH
We maybe not meant together, but at least I want you to know you are special.
We met on August 2012. It was a coincidence, one of my campus project for freshman was to send a love letter for seniors, and you were there, so I chose you. It started when we say hello to each other, and that was the only time we speak to each other.
I can never make a move because I was shy, and I knew you were with someone. I was with somebody else too, but I will always look for you at campus. Your class is not my regular go-to way, but I will always make an excuse to always pass your class. You weren’t always there too, but if you were, seeing your from afar is enough. Seeing you laughing with your friends and colleagues is enough.
Aku sama kakak temenan di facebook dan twitter, tapi hanya di twitter kita berinteraksi. Dan itu pun ga banyak, hanya satu-dua reply tak lama setelah ospek, setelah itu tak ada obrolan yang bisa dilakukan. Aku pun sibuk dengan hidupku, sehingga perasaan untuk mencari tahu tentang kakak pun sudah tak sebesar dulu. Tapi aku masih terus lewat kelas kakak setiap pulang, agar paling tidak, bisa melihat kakak sebelum pulang.
Aku pun sudah lupa bagaimana ceritanya, namun november 2016, kakak lulus. Perasaanku campur aduk. Senang karena kakak lulus tepat waktu, tapi sedih karena berarti tak akan bertemu kakak lagi. Aku pun mencari cara agar pertemuan terakhir saat di wisuda, bisa menjadi kenangan buatku, dan mungkin buat kakak juga. Dan aku memutuskan untuk memberi kakak setangkai bunga mawar. Sekarang sempat terpikir aku menyesal, mengapa aku hanya memberikan setangkai bunga yang akan layu, tanpa surat apapun. Tetapi pesan dari kakak di instagram yang berisi ‘tadi ngasih bunga ya?’ selalu membuatku tersenyum, bahkan hingga saat ini.
Twitter dan instagram adalah satu-satunya platform tempat kita bisa bercengkrama. Selera humor yang sama (dan keinginan untuk ngobrol) membuatku mencari cara agar dapat mengomentari postingan kakak. Tetapi tahukah kakak, jika kakak yang melakukan sebaliknya, hatiku masih berdebar-debar dan bertanya-tanya, bahkan setelah hampir 6 tahun? Pertanyaanku selalu sama, padahal kakak tahu bahwa aku menyukai kakak (bahkan hingga kini, mungkin?) dan kakak melakukan hal-hal yang membuatku berharap? Aku tidak menyalahkan kakak, tetapi aku sangat bertanya-tanya, apakah kakak benar-benar tahu bahwa perempuan berumur 23 tahun ini, masih mempunyai perasaan ke kakak walaupun kecil dan tidak tahu apa?
Tetapi di balik itu semua, ada perasaan senang yang kurasakan. Karena hingga kini walaupun tak bertemu, masih ada obrolan yang bisa dilakukan. Masih ada postingan yang bisa dikomentari. Masih ada interaksi.
Terima kasih untuk semuanya, walaupun mungkin kita tidak berjodoh, ketahuilah bahwa kakak pernah bermakna dalam hidup seseorang.
We met on August 2012. It was a coincidence, one of my campus project for freshman was to send a love letter for seniors, and you were there, so I chose you. It started when we say hello to each other, and that was the only time we speak to each other.
I can never make a move because I was shy, and I knew you were with someone. I was with somebody else too, but I will always look for you at campus. Your class is not my regular go-to way, but I will always make an excuse to always pass your class. You weren’t always there too, but if you were, seeing your from afar is enough. Seeing you laughing with your friends and colleagues is enough.
Aku sama kakak temenan di facebook dan twitter, tapi hanya di twitter kita berinteraksi. Dan itu pun ga banyak, hanya satu-dua reply tak lama setelah ospek, setelah itu tak ada obrolan yang bisa dilakukan. Aku pun sibuk dengan hidupku, sehingga perasaan untuk mencari tahu tentang kakak pun sudah tak sebesar dulu. Tapi aku masih terus lewat kelas kakak setiap pulang, agar paling tidak, bisa melihat kakak sebelum pulang.
Aku pun sudah lupa bagaimana ceritanya, namun november 2016, kakak lulus. Perasaanku campur aduk. Senang karena kakak lulus tepat waktu, tapi sedih karena berarti tak akan bertemu kakak lagi. Aku pun mencari cara agar pertemuan terakhir saat di wisuda, bisa menjadi kenangan buatku, dan mungkin buat kakak juga. Dan aku memutuskan untuk memberi kakak setangkai bunga mawar. Sekarang sempat terpikir aku menyesal, mengapa aku hanya memberikan setangkai bunga yang akan layu, tanpa surat apapun. Tetapi pesan dari kakak di instagram yang berisi ‘tadi ngasih bunga ya?’ selalu membuatku tersenyum, bahkan hingga saat ini.
Twitter dan instagram adalah satu-satunya platform tempat kita bisa bercengkrama. Selera humor yang sama (dan keinginan untuk ngobrol) membuatku mencari cara agar dapat mengomentari postingan kakak. Tetapi tahukah kakak, jika kakak yang melakukan sebaliknya, hatiku masih berdebar-debar dan bertanya-tanya, bahkan setelah hampir 6 tahun? Pertanyaanku selalu sama, padahal kakak tahu bahwa aku menyukai kakak (bahkan hingga kini, mungkin?) dan kakak melakukan hal-hal yang membuatku berharap? Aku tidak menyalahkan kakak, tetapi aku sangat bertanya-tanya, apakah kakak benar-benar tahu bahwa perempuan berumur 23 tahun ini, masih mempunyai perasaan ke kakak walaupun kecil dan tidak tahu apa?
Tetapi di balik itu semua, ada perasaan senang yang kurasakan. Karena hingga kini walaupun tak bertemu, masih ada obrolan yang bisa dilakukan. Masih ada postingan yang bisa dikomentari. Masih ada interaksi.
Terima kasih untuk semuanya, walaupun mungkin kita tidak berjodoh, ketahuilah bahwa kakak pernah bermakna dalam hidup seseorang.
Friday, June 16, 2017
A story when going home
It finally ends. We are going home. A 2 month study in Japan is finally done. I still can't believe it, yet I am already on the bus, going to the airport. The kind driver stopped at rest area, and told us to buy souvenirs and presents as we are going home. I already bought mine, but I went instead because I was hungry.
I saw a Korean restaurant, and I was talking to myself
'yes! I have been craving those for yearssss!!'
And I went in. It was packed, as I can see no chairs was available. But in the corner I saw Chanyeol, Kyungsoo and their manager sitting in one table, with one chair available. Yes, they went to the same study tour with us. With me. I never say to them I like them because I don't want things to become awkward and I can't be near them. They had their difficulties as an idol, and I don't want to add more. But this time, it is the last. I won't see them anymore. And in reality, I am so hungry and I can't find other seats. So I tell myself 'you have to be brave' and I asked Chanyeol.
"Can I sit here with you all?"
"Oh sure go ahead, but Kyungsoo and manager hyung is at the toilet, so you can sit here", he replies.
"Thank you."
I was partying in my head. I was sitting beside Chanyeol! The Chanyeol! But my party went off when the waiters come with menu. I even struggled with ordering because I was really nervous. But I think Chanyeol doesn't care. Because he just focused with his meal.
Finally Kyungsoo and manager hyung came back. They didn't say a word, just a single smile they gave to me. It was so awkward. They just focus at their food, while I can't do anything and I don't know what to do because my food hasn't ready. The awkwardness is finally gone when Chanyeol stands up from his chair and go out, I didn't remember what he said but I think he was going to buy some souvenirs. So I sat in a chair next to Kyungsoo, and if Kyungsoo wants to go, I need to stand up first to give him the way. Actually the three of us sat in a long chair together, but Chanyeol is tall so he can go out by himself, but Kyungsoo can't. I had a battle in my mind, whether I asked Kyungsoo does he want to go out too or stay silent and let him sit next to me longer. But my kind brain says I need to ask him.
"Do you want to go too?"
"Yes please"
And with a heavy heart, I stand up and give him the way. And as I watch their backs, I was thinking 'this is my only time with them, yet they just went without saying anything. I really want to be close to them, but as now, I can't even say anything. Maybe it's just better to like them from the screen.'
As I was thinking my food arrived, and I just lost my appetite. I was eating slowly, when suddenly manager hyung said to me
"You are really a wife material!"
Wait. What. Oh I forgot he still here. He hasn't done with his food, and I don't know his reason but he was still here, when Chanyeol and Kyungsoo has gone. I didn't even notice him because I was feeling sad thinking about what just happened. And his sentences woke me up.
"What do you mean by that? I don't think you are saying things right.." I asked jokingly.
"Your sentences in group chats! People are saying greetings, but you...you were different! That's when I know you are a wife material!" He explains.
I started to think, what chat did he refer to. I don't think my sentences explains things, I just said greetings, as we are going home soon. But I don't know how my chats were describing me as a wife material??? How is that possible????
And I woke up.
Ps. So maybe you realised this is my dream. When I started to like exo, I often dreamt about them. And I am used to write about my dream, because it is so fun to read later. So I was thinking maybe I should share it. It was fun yet dreams have no point and the plots are random. It is just a glimpse of what we were thinking, and mixed with what we have done. No point. No hopes. Yet so fun to read😄
I saw a Korean restaurant, and I was talking to myself
'yes! I have been craving those for yearssss!!'
And I went in. It was packed, as I can see no chairs was available. But in the corner I saw Chanyeol, Kyungsoo and their manager sitting in one table, with one chair available. Yes, they went to the same study tour with us. With me. I never say to them I like them because I don't want things to become awkward and I can't be near them. They had their difficulties as an idol, and I don't want to add more. But this time, it is the last. I won't see them anymore. And in reality, I am so hungry and I can't find other seats. So I tell myself 'you have to be brave' and I asked Chanyeol.
"Can I sit here with you all?"
"Oh sure go ahead, but Kyungsoo and manager hyung is at the toilet, so you can sit here", he replies.
"Thank you."
I was partying in my head. I was sitting beside Chanyeol! The Chanyeol! But my party went off when the waiters come with menu. I even struggled with ordering because I was really nervous. But I think Chanyeol doesn't care. Because he just focused with his meal.
Finally Kyungsoo and manager hyung came back. They didn't say a word, just a single smile they gave to me. It was so awkward. They just focus at their food, while I can't do anything and I don't know what to do because my food hasn't ready. The awkwardness is finally gone when Chanyeol stands up from his chair and go out, I didn't remember what he said but I think he was going to buy some souvenirs. So I sat in a chair next to Kyungsoo, and if Kyungsoo wants to go, I need to stand up first to give him the way. Actually the three of us sat in a long chair together, but Chanyeol is tall so he can go out by himself, but Kyungsoo can't. I had a battle in my mind, whether I asked Kyungsoo does he want to go out too or stay silent and let him sit next to me longer. But my kind brain says I need to ask him.
"Do you want to go too?"
"Yes please"
And with a heavy heart, I stand up and give him the way. And as I watch their backs, I was thinking 'this is my only time with them, yet they just went without saying anything. I really want to be close to them, but as now, I can't even say anything. Maybe it's just better to like them from the screen.'
As I was thinking my food arrived, and I just lost my appetite. I was eating slowly, when suddenly manager hyung said to me
"You are really a wife material!"
Wait. What. Oh I forgot he still here. He hasn't done with his food, and I don't know his reason but he was still here, when Chanyeol and Kyungsoo has gone. I didn't even notice him because I was feeling sad thinking about what just happened. And his sentences woke me up.
"What do you mean by that? I don't think you are saying things right.." I asked jokingly.
"Your sentences in group chats! People are saying greetings, but you...you were different! That's when I know you are a wife material!" He explains.
I started to think, what chat did he refer to. I don't think my sentences explains things, I just said greetings, as we are going home soon. But I don't know how my chats were describing me as a wife material??? How is that possible????
And I woke up.
Ps. So maybe you realised this is my dream. When I started to like exo, I often dreamt about them. And I am used to write about my dream, because it is so fun to read later. So I was thinking maybe I should share it. It was fun yet dreams have no point and the plots are random. It is just a glimpse of what we were thinking, and mixed with what we have done. No point. No hopes. Yet so fun to read😄
Wednesday, June 14, 2017
Character readings.....sort of. ep 2
Hi. I was thinking earlier, I am new to this world, people already know them by their own character, real or not, so you are so lateeeee. But this is not for someone who already knows them. This is for everyone who doesn't even know what is exo. And I have more members to go. Let's start!
4. Chen aka jongdae
His loud whiny voice maybe annoy you at first, but it geta cute by time. The ultimate 'WHAEEEEE' is only can be done by jongdae. So exo has a wild-variety-comedy member, and he is one of them. Basically exo is a variety based boyband LMAO but they have three people as leaders. Jongdae is one of them. He really like when people are complement him on things he worked hard to reach. I think he used to be a shy kid, but somehow he met the right people at the right time and he turns put to be like this. Oh and he used to hate suho for his dad jokes, but now I think he tried to tolerates him.
5. Chanyeol
OUR HAPPY VIRUS!!!! Comedy member. He got on so many tv shows, that's how we know he is a really easy going person. He can join any environment laid ahead him. And he will be the one who always makes things brighter. He has a really big heart. I forgot the acc but someone tweeted like this 'chanyeol thinks that he is small, but he has a big heart so his body got this large' or something like this. And it's trueeeee. He really is a boyfriend material lol. God if I can't have kyungsoo then chanyeol is ok too.
6. Baekhyun
Everyone knows him. The chatty one. The comedy one. The leader of comedy member lol. Everyone wants to bully him. If it is baekhyun then it is ok for me to bully. Lololol he's just so cutee! I really like his personality. He really likes to give comment on things and make jokes and we really need this kind of person in our life. I think there are no hidden intention on this, he is just a chatty person. I think if he doesn't sing, he will be a good MC. Oh and did I mention his voice is the bomb?
This article is turning into something else lololol it's not a character reading it's an explanation about each member lmao what have I done. But it is based on each member, there are people whom we will immediately know what kind of person he is, some need explanation. And hey, this is my blog you can't control me.
Lmao jk I need you! wait for my next post!
4. Chen aka jongdae
His loud whiny voice maybe annoy you at first, but it geta cute by time. The ultimate 'WHAEEEEE' is only can be done by jongdae. So exo has a wild-variety-comedy member, and he is one of them. Basically exo is a variety based boyband LMAO but they have three people as leaders. Jongdae is one of them. He really like when people are complement him on things he worked hard to reach. I think he used to be a shy kid, but somehow he met the right people at the right time and he turns put to be like this. Oh and he used to hate suho for his dad jokes, but now I think he tried to tolerates him.
5. Chanyeol
OUR HAPPY VIRUS!!!! Comedy member. He got on so many tv shows, that's how we know he is a really easy going person. He can join any environment laid ahead him. And he will be the one who always makes things brighter. He has a really big heart. I forgot the acc but someone tweeted like this 'chanyeol thinks that he is small, but he has a big heart so his body got this large' or something like this. And it's trueeeee. He really is a boyfriend material lol. God if I can't have kyungsoo then chanyeol is ok too.
6. Baekhyun
Everyone knows him. The chatty one. The comedy one. The leader of comedy member lol. Everyone wants to bully him. If it is baekhyun then it is ok for me to bully. Lololol he's just so cutee! I really like his personality. He really likes to give comment on things and make jokes and we really need this kind of person in our life. I think there are no hidden intention on this, he is just a chatty person. I think if he doesn't sing, he will be a good MC. Oh and did I mention his voice is the bomb?
This article is turning into something else lololol it's not a character reading it's an explanation about each member lmao what have I done. But it is based on each member, there are people whom we will immediately know what kind of person he is, some need explanation. And hey, this is my blog you can't control me.
Lmao jk I need you! wait for my next post!
Sunday, June 11, 2017
Character readings ep. 1
hello. About to write k-pop related again. Just hit the close if you have had enough lol jk stay please I need reader.
Having an idol from south korea is really different than another country. You get to see their 'true' self behind the scenes, like on a variety shows or reality shows. They maybe scripted, but I think sometimes they act like they usually do in real life. Seeing (and analysing) this, I've conclusion on exo, they have their own characters based on what they show on (beside performing) and off stage. This is purely my own subjective opinion, so you can either agree or not. But I'm sure you are in the same ship with me on this one, exo-ls.
I was about to write this on full english but some words are better said in indonesian, so I'll mix it. So suho oppa if you see this then well contact me for translation ok? Ok.
1. Lay aka yixing
He's pure af! Sometimes at interviews or shows he was so quite like he didn't give that much attention, or he doesn't laugh when other people laugh, so he looks like a songong person. But naaaah this one is totally wrong. He just doesn't get it. Or maybe just about to comprehend what others are saying. I saw a lot of MCs are bullying him because he looked like he doesn't like to be treated like that, or he looked so songong. His face is like that thooooo. Stop bullying him pleaseeee omo. I think he's really sweet, and really care with others members. seeing that he is the only chinese member left, I feel like we need to encourage him more. He is just a pure hearted man with songong face, but talented af and likes dolls. Oh, and receh. Trust me.
2. D.O aka kyungsoo
I really like to call him kyungsoo rather dan D.O bcs idk it just fits him better. He is really hard to read, I also have difficulties on explaining what about him, but I'll try. He's not that easy to show his feelings, like there are times he just sit still when other members are rollin on the floor laughing. Maybe he doesn't find it that funny, idk what's going on in his mind. But it doesn't mean he's bad thoooo. He also has a really pure heart, but not soft (i guess?). He likes to hit other members, but I think that's what's lovable from him. We need that kind of person in our life, the one who will just throw punches at us, and tell us if we do wrong straight on face. He is also talented in acting, I can see him on different genres in the future. Having a lot of actor friends also prove that he is not as bad as he looks, you just need to know him deeper. Maybe word 'manly' fits him, but for me it just doesn't work. He's my sweet smol heart shaped lips creature. He is not manly for me, and only me. I really love this smol creature. God if I can't have him then can You give me the one that's like him? Thank you.
3. Suho aka junmyeon
At first I like to call him junmyeon (bcs he said he likes girls who calls him that) but I like to call him suho, because he really is a suho or guardian. Being a leader is really hard, I can see it, people can see it. Even though being a boyband leader doesn't need to fullfill people expectations (like corporate leader for example) but he still need to to work harder than others. He needs to be the one who starts everthing, the one who knows everything, the one who thinks more than other member. Being a trainee for 7 years is a hard work too, I know you guys can see it. It's worth, it is, but it doesn't mean it is not hard. Sometimes I just want to say all the thank you's to him, just so he knows that he did work hard and we are thankful of that. But seeing how garing and jayus he is, stops me. I think being garing is one of his trials to get closer to other members, but cmon it's been five years isn't it? I just know you exo this past months but seeing all of your jayusness, it's really cringy. It's ok tho you are still our cute bunny and strong guardian with damn so good voice and beautiful face.
That's three, six more to go.
Or should I do ot12? hmm 考えています。
Having an idol from south korea is really different than another country. You get to see their 'true' self behind the scenes, like on a variety shows or reality shows. They maybe scripted, but I think sometimes they act like they usually do in real life. Seeing (and analysing) this, I've conclusion on exo, they have their own characters based on what they show on (beside performing) and off stage. This is purely my own subjective opinion, so you can either agree or not. But I'm sure you are in the same ship with me on this one, exo-ls.
I was about to write this on full english but some words are better said in indonesian, so I'll mix it. So suho oppa if you see this then well contact me for translation ok? Ok.
1. Lay aka yixing
He's pure af! Sometimes at interviews or shows he was so quite like he didn't give that much attention, or he doesn't laugh when other people laugh, so he looks like a songong person. But naaaah this one is totally wrong. He just doesn't get it. Or maybe just about to comprehend what others are saying. I saw a lot of MCs are bullying him because he looked like he doesn't like to be treated like that, or he looked so songong. His face is like that thooooo. Stop bullying him pleaseeee omo. I think he's really sweet, and really care with others members. seeing that he is the only chinese member left, I feel like we need to encourage him more. He is just a pure hearted man with songong face, but talented af and likes dolls. Oh, and receh. Trust me.
2. D.O aka kyungsoo
I really like to call him kyungsoo rather dan D.O bcs idk it just fits him better. He is really hard to read, I also have difficulties on explaining what about him, but I'll try. He's not that easy to show his feelings, like there are times he just sit still when other members are rollin on the floor laughing. Maybe he doesn't find it that funny, idk what's going on in his mind. But it doesn't mean he's bad thoooo. He also has a really pure heart, but not soft (i guess?). He likes to hit other members, but I think that's what's lovable from him. We need that kind of person in our life, the one who will just throw punches at us, and tell us if we do wrong straight on face. He is also talented in acting, I can see him on different genres in the future. Having a lot of actor friends also prove that he is not as bad as he looks, you just need to know him deeper. Maybe word 'manly' fits him, but for me it just doesn't work. He's my sweet smol heart shaped lips creature. He is not manly for me, and only me. I really love this smol creature. God if I can't have him then can You give me the one that's like him? Thank you.
3. Suho aka junmyeon
At first I like to call him junmyeon (bcs he said he likes girls who calls him that) but I like to call him suho, because he really is a suho or guardian. Being a leader is really hard, I can see it, people can see it. Even though being a boyband leader doesn't need to fullfill people expectations (like corporate leader for example) but he still need to to work harder than others. He needs to be the one who starts everthing, the one who knows everything, the one who thinks more than other member. Being a trainee for 7 years is a hard work too, I know you guys can see it. It's worth, it is, but it doesn't mean it is not hard. Sometimes I just want to say all the thank you's to him, just so he knows that he did work hard and we are thankful of that. But seeing how garing and jayus he is, stops me. I think being garing is one of his trials to get closer to other members, but cmon it's been five years isn't it? I just know you exo this past months but seeing all of your jayusness, it's really cringy. It's ok tho you are still our cute bunny and strong guardian with damn so good voice and beautiful face.
That's three, six more to go.
Or should I do ot12? hmm 考えています。
Sunday, May 21, 2017
Happy Birthday 오리 리다
This is my first post about this group, and finally I am telling the world, I am an EXO-L. Never thought I'd fall this deep into korean, but I am, so why don't I enjoy it?
It's May 22th, and our leader, Kim Junmyeon aka Suho is having a birthday today. Chanyeol even posted a birthday party pic on his IG and everyone showed up except Yixing. Damn I miss him but I can't do anything:( this is an unrelatable post, I'll just keep going.
Everytime I like an idol, korean or american, on their birthday, we supposed to feel happy for him, but I don't. I always feel sad. It is not because I can't say happy birthday to him, it's because I can't say how thankful I am to him. I feel like living as a superstar is really hard. They gave up their free lives, they can't even show up in public as usual. They can't read social media freely without finding a single insult. They need to act as procedure, or else they will find their consequences. It is ok as lomg as they are happy, but that's the problem. No one knows they are either happy or not. I can't ask them directly, and I can't tell them I am supporting them, and I can't say there are alot of people feeling thankful to them. That's what I am sad about. They had a really tough life, but I can't do anything. Sometimes, sometimes I wish I know them in person, and they are not this famous, but having the same attitude. But then I remember, I won't even know them if they're not famous, as same as they don't even know me.
But still, I'm so grateful I know you, and thank you for your hardwork until this day. Keep your chin up, you look good smiling. 상일촉해 사랑해 는 오리 리다 김존면💕
It's May 22th, and our leader, Kim Junmyeon aka Suho is having a birthday today. Chanyeol even posted a birthday party pic on his IG and everyone showed up except Yixing. Damn I miss him but I can't do anything:( this is an unrelatable post, I'll just keep going.
Everytime I like an idol, korean or american, on their birthday, we supposed to feel happy for him, but I don't. I always feel sad. It is not because I can't say happy birthday to him, it's because I can't say how thankful I am to him. I feel like living as a superstar is really hard. They gave up their free lives, they can't even show up in public as usual. They can't read social media freely without finding a single insult. They need to act as procedure, or else they will find their consequences. It is ok as lomg as they are happy, but that's the problem. No one knows they are either happy or not. I can't ask them directly, and I can't tell them I am supporting them, and I can't say there are alot of people feeling thankful to them. That's what I am sad about. They had a really tough life, but I can't do anything. Sometimes, sometimes I wish I know them in person, and they are not this famous, but having the same attitude. But then I remember, I won't even know them if they're not famous, as same as they don't even know me.
But still, I'm so grateful I know you, and thank you for your hardwork until this day. Keep your chin up, you look good smiling. 상일촉해 사랑해 는 오리 리다 김존면💕
Sunday, February 26, 2017
One Direction On The Road Again Tour 2015: Part Two
Akhirnya konser pun selesai. Aku yang berjanji untuk pulang bersama teman-temanku yang lain yang berpisah tadi, saling menghubungi agar bertemu di suatu tempat. Aku yang tiba duluan menunggu yang lain sambil membuka handphone-ku,mengecek jika ada pesan penting yang masuk, karena selama konser berlangsung sangat susah sekali mendapatkan sinyal. Setelah membalas semua pesan, aku membuka twitter, jika saja salah satu personil men-tweet konser hari ini. Namun yang kulihat malah berita buruk.
Konser hari itu yang tidak diikuti oleh Zayn karena Ia mengalami masalah kesehatan, ternyata konser pertama yang akan menjadi lanjutan konser-konser selanjutnya tanpanya. Ya, Zayn memutuskan untuk keluar dari One Direction, dilihat dari pos facebook One Direction.
Konser hari itu yang tidak diikuti oleh Zayn karena Ia mengalami masalah kesehatan, ternyata konser pertama yang akan menjadi lanjutan konser-konser selanjutnya tanpanya. Ya, Zayn memutuskan untuk keluar dari One Direction, dilihat dari pos facebook One Direction.
I was devastated.
That day, it was supposed to be the happiest day of my life, the time when I finally meet them But it crushed to the ground.
Sampe udah pulang pun masih kepikiran, benarkah berita ini? Apa semua cuma prank?
Ternyata semua memang benar, dan 1D pun melanjutkan konsernya tanpa Zayn. Sedih memang, namun Zayn menunjukkan bahwa memang sudah saatnya Ia harus keluar, dan sebagai fans harus tetap mendukung apapun keputusannya.
1D pun tak lama memutuskan untuk hiatus, setelah mengeluarkan single terakhir berjudul 'History'. Hiatus memang, namun apakah 1D akan kembali dan kapan, masih tidak ada yang tahu. Masing-masing member pun saat ini sudah memiliki kesibukan masing-masing. Aku bersyukur, masih bisa diberi kesempatan untuk melihat mereka dari jarak dekat, bisa merasakan euphoria menonton bersama sesama penggemar. Dan jika masih diberi kesempatan, semoga bisa merasakannya kembali, walaupun entah kapan.
Ps. this post has already past its due hehehe I can't even remember all the details, because it was two years ago. But I wrote the first part so I think I have to finish it.
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