Maybe since that big thing happened, I’ve been giving life more attention. Not because I want to, but because.. I am preparing for the future. Since when that I always see the future, but never enjoy the moment? Everything is about ‘for me when I’m 25 so I’ll already have a permanent job’ ‘for me when I’m ready enough to be a wife’ ‘for me later on so I acn have something to tell’. But does this all really important?
Really, I should’ve just enjoy the moment, just let everything be. And I tried too. Am still struggling, but suddenly your spark hits mine. It feels so refreshing for someone who’s been feeling nothing these years. I’ve got my confidence back. I see the road clearer. I think I am happier.
But you are with somebody else.
It’s not your fault, really. But I am blaming myself, why did I fall for someone that I don’t even know? Why did make up stories in my mind about me and you? Why did I get my hopes high up? Why did I fall too easily?
I am sorrt I am feeling this way. I won’t take you. I won’t take anything. But please, let me be happy when I am around you. Please tell me you are okay with me being around you, and just be friends like I am with everyone else.
I hope I can be that with you too.
Thank you for coming into my life.
And God, please help me forget this feeling, because I know I can’t take something that’s already been others’.
Saturday, July 28, 2018
Sunday, April 1, 2018
The story of RH
We maybe not meant together, but at least I want you to know you are special.
We met on August 2012. It was a coincidence, one of my campus project for freshman was to send a love letter for seniors, and you were there, so I chose you. It started when we say hello to each other, and that was the only time we speak to each other.
I can never make a move because I was shy, and I knew you were with someone. I was with somebody else too, but I will always look for you at campus. Your class is not my regular go-to way, but I will always make an excuse to always pass your class. You weren’t always there too, but if you were, seeing your from afar is enough. Seeing you laughing with your friends and colleagues is enough.
Aku sama kakak temenan di facebook dan twitter, tapi hanya di twitter kita berinteraksi. Dan itu pun ga banyak, hanya satu-dua reply tak lama setelah ospek, setelah itu tak ada obrolan yang bisa dilakukan. Aku pun sibuk dengan hidupku, sehingga perasaan untuk mencari tahu tentang kakak pun sudah tak sebesar dulu. Tapi aku masih terus lewat kelas kakak setiap pulang, agar paling tidak, bisa melihat kakak sebelum pulang.
Aku pun sudah lupa bagaimana ceritanya, namun november 2016, kakak lulus. Perasaanku campur aduk. Senang karena kakak lulus tepat waktu, tapi sedih karena berarti tak akan bertemu kakak lagi. Aku pun mencari cara agar pertemuan terakhir saat di wisuda, bisa menjadi kenangan buatku, dan mungkin buat kakak juga. Dan aku memutuskan untuk memberi kakak setangkai bunga mawar. Sekarang sempat terpikir aku menyesal, mengapa aku hanya memberikan setangkai bunga yang akan layu, tanpa surat apapun. Tetapi pesan dari kakak di instagram yang berisi ‘tadi ngasih bunga ya?’ selalu membuatku tersenyum, bahkan hingga saat ini.
Twitter dan instagram adalah satu-satunya platform tempat kita bisa bercengkrama. Selera humor yang sama (dan keinginan untuk ngobrol) membuatku mencari cara agar dapat mengomentari postingan kakak. Tetapi tahukah kakak, jika kakak yang melakukan sebaliknya, hatiku masih berdebar-debar dan bertanya-tanya, bahkan setelah hampir 6 tahun? Pertanyaanku selalu sama, padahal kakak tahu bahwa aku menyukai kakak (bahkan hingga kini, mungkin?) dan kakak melakukan hal-hal yang membuatku berharap? Aku tidak menyalahkan kakak, tetapi aku sangat bertanya-tanya, apakah kakak benar-benar tahu bahwa perempuan berumur 23 tahun ini, masih mempunyai perasaan ke kakak walaupun kecil dan tidak tahu apa?
Tetapi di balik itu semua, ada perasaan senang yang kurasakan. Karena hingga kini walaupun tak bertemu, masih ada obrolan yang bisa dilakukan. Masih ada postingan yang bisa dikomentari. Masih ada interaksi.
Terima kasih untuk semuanya, walaupun mungkin kita tidak berjodoh, ketahuilah bahwa kakak pernah bermakna dalam hidup seseorang.
We met on August 2012. It was a coincidence, one of my campus project for freshman was to send a love letter for seniors, and you were there, so I chose you. It started when we say hello to each other, and that was the only time we speak to each other.
I can never make a move because I was shy, and I knew you were with someone. I was with somebody else too, but I will always look for you at campus. Your class is not my regular go-to way, but I will always make an excuse to always pass your class. You weren’t always there too, but if you were, seeing your from afar is enough. Seeing you laughing with your friends and colleagues is enough.
Aku sama kakak temenan di facebook dan twitter, tapi hanya di twitter kita berinteraksi. Dan itu pun ga banyak, hanya satu-dua reply tak lama setelah ospek, setelah itu tak ada obrolan yang bisa dilakukan. Aku pun sibuk dengan hidupku, sehingga perasaan untuk mencari tahu tentang kakak pun sudah tak sebesar dulu. Tapi aku masih terus lewat kelas kakak setiap pulang, agar paling tidak, bisa melihat kakak sebelum pulang.
Aku pun sudah lupa bagaimana ceritanya, namun november 2016, kakak lulus. Perasaanku campur aduk. Senang karena kakak lulus tepat waktu, tapi sedih karena berarti tak akan bertemu kakak lagi. Aku pun mencari cara agar pertemuan terakhir saat di wisuda, bisa menjadi kenangan buatku, dan mungkin buat kakak juga. Dan aku memutuskan untuk memberi kakak setangkai bunga mawar. Sekarang sempat terpikir aku menyesal, mengapa aku hanya memberikan setangkai bunga yang akan layu, tanpa surat apapun. Tetapi pesan dari kakak di instagram yang berisi ‘tadi ngasih bunga ya?’ selalu membuatku tersenyum, bahkan hingga saat ini.
Twitter dan instagram adalah satu-satunya platform tempat kita bisa bercengkrama. Selera humor yang sama (dan keinginan untuk ngobrol) membuatku mencari cara agar dapat mengomentari postingan kakak. Tetapi tahukah kakak, jika kakak yang melakukan sebaliknya, hatiku masih berdebar-debar dan bertanya-tanya, bahkan setelah hampir 6 tahun? Pertanyaanku selalu sama, padahal kakak tahu bahwa aku menyukai kakak (bahkan hingga kini, mungkin?) dan kakak melakukan hal-hal yang membuatku berharap? Aku tidak menyalahkan kakak, tetapi aku sangat bertanya-tanya, apakah kakak benar-benar tahu bahwa perempuan berumur 23 tahun ini, masih mempunyai perasaan ke kakak walaupun kecil dan tidak tahu apa?
Tetapi di balik itu semua, ada perasaan senang yang kurasakan. Karena hingga kini walaupun tak bertemu, masih ada obrolan yang bisa dilakukan. Masih ada postingan yang bisa dikomentari. Masih ada interaksi.
Terima kasih untuk semuanya, walaupun mungkin kita tidak berjodoh, ketahuilah bahwa kakak pernah bermakna dalam hidup seseorang.
Friday, June 16, 2017
A story when going home
It finally ends. We are going home. A 2 month study in Japan is finally done. I still can't believe it, yet I am already on the bus, going to the airport. The kind driver stopped at rest area, and told us to buy souvenirs and presents as we are going home. I already bought mine, but I went instead because I was hungry.
I saw a Korean restaurant, and I was talking to myself
'yes! I have been craving those for yearssss!!'
And I went in. It was packed, as I can see no chairs was available. But in the corner I saw Chanyeol, Kyungsoo and their manager sitting in one table, with one chair available. Yes, they went to the same study tour with us. With me. I never say to them I like them because I don't want things to become awkward and I can't be near them. They had their difficulties as an idol, and I don't want to add more. But this time, it is the last. I won't see them anymore. And in reality, I am so hungry and I can't find other seats. So I tell myself 'you have to be brave' and I asked Chanyeol.
"Can I sit here with you all?"
"Oh sure go ahead, but Kyungsoo and manager hyung is at the toilet, so you can sit here", he replies.
"Thank you."
I was partying in my head. I was sitting beside Chanyeol! The Chanyeol! But my party went off when the waiters come with menu. I even struggled with ordering because I was really nervous. But I think Chanyeol doesn't care. Because he just focused with his meal.
Finally Kyungsoo and manager hyung came back. They didn't say a word, just a single smile they gave to me. It was so awkward. They just focus at their food, while I can't do anything and I don't know what to do because my food hasn't ready. The awkwardness is finally gone when Chanyeol stands up from his chair and go out, I didn't remember what he said but I think he was going to buy some souvenirs. So I sat in a chair next to Kyungsoo, and if Kyungsoo wants to go, I need to stand up first to give him the way. Actually the three of us sat in a long chair together, but Chanyeol is tall so he can go out by himself, but Kyungsoo can't. I had a battle in my mind, whether I asked Kyungsoo does he want to go out too or stay silent and let him sit next to me longer. But my kind brain says I need to ask him.
"Do you want to go too?"
"Yes please"
And with a heavy heart, I stand up and give him the way. And as I watch their backs, I was thinking 'this is my only time with them, yet they just went without saying anything. I really want to be close to them, but as now, I can't even say anything. Maybe it's just better to like them from the screen.'
As I was thinking my food arrived, and I just lost my appetite. I was eating slowly, when suddenly manager hyung said to me
"You are really a wife material!"
Wait. What. Oh I forgot he still here. He hasn't done with his food, and I don't know his reason but he was still here, when Chanyeol and Kyungsoo has gone. I didn't even notice him because I was feeling sad thinking about what just happened. And his sentences woke me up.
"What do you mean by that? I don't think you are saying things right.." I asked jokingly.
"Your sentences in group chats! People are saying greetings, but you...you were different! That's when I know you are a wife material!" He explains.
I started to think, what chat did he refer to. I don't think my sentences explains things, I just said greetings, as we are going home soon. But I don't know how my chats were describing me as a wife material??? How is that possible????
And I woke up.
Ps. So maybe you realised this is my dream. When I started to like exo, I often dreamt about them. And I am used to write about my dream, because it is so fun to read later. So I was thinking maybe I should share it. It was fun yet dreams have no point and the plots are random. It is just a glimpse of what we were thinking, and mixed with what we have done. No point. No hopes. Yet so fun to read😄
I saw a Korean restaurant, and I was talking to myself
'yes! I have been craving those for yearssss!!'
And I went in. It was packed, as I can see no chairs was available. But in the corner I saw Chanyeol, Kyungsoo and their manager sitting in one table, with one chair available. Yes, they went to the same study tour with us. With me. I never say to them I like them because I don't want things to become awkward and I can't be near them. They had their difficulties as an idol, and I don't want to add more. But this time, it is the last. I won't see them anymore. And in reality, I am so hungry and I can't find other seats. So I tell myself 'you have to be brave' and I asked Chanyeol.
"Can I sit here with you all?"
"Oh sure go ahead, but Kyungsoo and manager hyung is at the toilet, so you can sit here", he replies.
"Thank you."
I was partying in my head. I was sitting beside Chanyeol! The Chanyeol! But my party went off when the waiters come with menu. I even struggled with ordering because I was really nervous. But I think Chanyeol doesn't care. Because he just focused with his meal.
Finally Kyungsoo and manager hyung came back. They didn't say a word, just a single smile they gave to me. It was so awkward. They just focus at their food, while I can't do anything and I don't know what to do because my food hasn't ready. The awkwardness is finally gone when Chanyeol stands up from his chair and go out, I didn't remember what he said but I think he was going to buy some souvenirs. So I sat in a chair next to Kyungsoo, and if Kyungsoo wants to go, I need to stand up first to give him the way. Actually the three of us sat in a long chair together, but Chanyeol is tall so he can go out by himself, but Kyungsoo can't. I had a battle in my mind, whether I asked Kyungsoo does he want to go out too or stay silent and let him sit next to me longer. But my kind brain says I need to ask him.
"Do you want to go too?"
"Yes please"
And with a heavy heart, I stand up and give him the way. And as I watch their backs, I was thinking 'this is my only time with them, yet they just went without saying anything. I really want to be close to them, but as now, I can't even say anything. Maybe it's just better to like them from the screen.'
As I was thinking my food arrived, and I just lost my appetite. I was eating slowly, when suddenly manager hyung said to me
"You are really a wife material!"
Wait. What. Oh I forgot he still here. He hasn't done with his food, and I don't know his reason but he was still here, when Chanyeol and Kyungsoo has gone. I didn't even notice him because I was feeling sad thinking about what just happened. And his sentences woke me up.
"What do you mean by that? I don't think you are saying things right.." I asked jokingly.
"Your sentences in group chats! People are saying greetings, but you...you were different! That's when I know you are a wife material!" He explains.
I started to think, what chat did he refer to. I don't think my sentences explains things, I just said greetings, as we are going home soon. But I don't know how my chats were describing me as a wife material??? How is that possible????
And I woke up.
Ps. So maybe you realised this is my dream. When I started to like exo, I often dreamt about them. And I am used to write about my dream, because it is so fun to read later. So I was thinking maybe I should share it. It was fun yet dreams have no point and the plots are random. It is just a glimpse of what we were thinking, and mixed with what we have done. No point. No hopes. Yet so fun to read😄
Wednesday, June 14, 2017
Character readings.....sort of. ep 2
Hi. I was thinking earlier, I am new to this world, people already know them by their own character, real or not, so you are so lateeeee. But this is not for someone who already knows them. This is for everyone who doesn't even know what is exo. And I have more members to go. Let's start!
4. Chen aka jongdae
His loud whiny voice maybe annoy you at first, but it geta cute by time. The ultimate 'WHAEEEEE' is only can be done by jongdae. So exo has a wild-variety-comedy member, and he is one of them. Basically exo is a variety based boyband LMAO but they have three people as leaders. Jongdae is one of them. He really like when people are complement him on things he worked hard to reach. I think he used to be a shy kid, but somehow he met the right people at the right time and he turns put to be like this. Oh and he used to hate suho for his dad jokes, but now I think he tried to tolerates him.
5. Chanyeol
OUR HAPPY VIRUS!!!! Comedy member. He got on so many tv shows, that's how we know he is a really easy going person. He can join any environment laid ahead him. And he will be the one who always makes things brighter. He has a really big heart. I forgot the acc but someone tweeted like this 'chanyeol thinks that he is small, but he has a big heart so his body got this large' or something like this. And it's trueeeee. He really is a boyfriend material lol. God if I can't have kyungsoo then chanyeol is ok too.
6. Baekhyun
Everyone knows him. The chatty one. The comedy one. The leader of comedy member lol. Everyone wants to bully him. If it is baekhyun then it is ok for me to bully. Lololol he's just so cutee! I really like his personality. He really likes to give comment on things and make jokes and we really need this kind of person in our life. I think there are no hidden intention on this, he is just a chatty person. I think if he doesn't sing, he will be a good MC. Oh and did I mention his voice is the bomb?
This article is turning into something else lololol it's not a character reading it's an explanation about each member lmao what have I done. But it is based on each member, there are people whom we will immediately know what kind of person he is, some need explanation. And hey, this is my blog you can't control me.
Lmao jk I need you! wait for my next post!
4. Chen aka jongdae
His loud whiny voice maybe annoy you at first, but it geta cute by time. The ultimate 'WHAEEEEE' is only can be done by jongdae. So exo has a wild-variety-comedy member, and he is one of them. Basically exo is a variety based boyband LMAO but they have three people as leaders. Jongdae is one of them. He really like when people are complement him on things he worked hard to reach. I think he used to be a shy kid, but somehow he met the right people at the right time and he turns put to be like this. Oh and he used to hate suho for his dad jokes, but now I think he tried to tolerates him.
5. Chanyeol
OUR HAPPY VIRUS!!!! Comedy member. He got on so many tv shows, that's how we know he is a really easy going person. He can join any environment laid ahead him. And he will be the one who always makes things brighter. He has a really big heart. I forgot the acc but someone tweeted like this 'chanyeol thinks that he is small, but he has a big heart so his body got this large' or something like this. And it's trueeeee. He really is a boyfriend material lol. God if I can't have kyungsoo then chanyeol is ok too.
6. Baekhyun
Everyone knows him. The chatty one. The comedy one. The leader of comedy member lol. Everyone wants to bully him. If it is baekhyun then it is ok for me to bully. Lololol he's just so cutee! I really like his personality. He really likes to give comment on things and make jokes and we really need this kind of person in our life. I think there are no hidden intention on this, he is just a chatty person. I think if he doesn't sing, he will be a good MC. Oh and did I mention his voice is the bomb?
This article is turning into something else lololol it's not a character reading it's an explanation about each member lmao what have I done. But it is based on each member, there are people whom we will immediately know what kind of person he is, some need explanation. And hey, this is my blog you can't control me.
Lmao jk I need you! wait for my next post!
Sunday, June 11, 2017
Character readings ep. 1
hello. About to write k-pop related again. Just hit the close if you have had enough lol jk stay please I need reader.
Having an idol from south korea is really different than another country. You get to see their 'true' self behind the scenes, like on a variety shows or reality shows. They maybe scripted, but I think sometimes they act like they usually do in real life. Seeing (and analysing) this, I've conclusion on exo, they have their own characters based on what they show on (beside performing) and off stage. This is purely my own subjective opinion, so you can either agree or not. But I'm sure you are in the same ship with me on this one, exo-ls.
I was about to write this on full english but some words are better said in indonesian, so I'll mix it. So suho oppa if you see this then well contact me for translation ok? Ok.
1. Lay aka yixing
He's pure af! Sometimes at interviews or shows he was so quite like he didn't give that much attention, or he doesn't laugh when other people laugh, so he looks like a songong person. But naaaah this one is totally wrong. He just doesn't get it. Or maybe just about to comprehend what others are saying. I saw a lot of MCs are bullying him because he looked like he doesn't like to be treated like that, or he looked so songong. His face is like that thooooo. Stop bullying him pleaseeee omo. I think he's really sweet, and really care with others members. seeing that he is the only chinese member left, I feel like we need to encourage him more. He is just a pure hearted man with songong face, but talented af and likes dolls. Oh, and receh. Trust me.
2. D.O aka kyungsoo
I really like to call him kyungsoo rather dan D.O bcs idk it just fits him better. He is really hard to read, I also have difficulties on explaining what about him, but I'll try. He's not that easy to show his feelings, like there are times he just sit still when other members are rollin on the floor laughing. Maybe he doesn't find it that funny, idk what's going on in his mind. But it doesn't mean he's bad thoooo. He also has a really pure heart, but not soft (i guess?). He likes to hit other members, but I think that's what's lovable from him. We need that kind of person in our life, the one who will just throw punches at us, and tell us if we do wrong straight on face. He is also talented in acting, I can see him on different genres in the future. Having a lot of actor friends also prove that he is not as bad as he looks, you just need to know him deeper. Maybe word 'manly' fits him, but for me it just doesn't work. He's my sweet smol heart shaped lips creature. He is not manly for me, and only me. I really love this smol creature. God if I can't have him then can You give me the one that's like him? Thank you.
3. Suho aka junmyeon
At first I like to call him junmyeon (bcs he said he likes girls who calls him that) but I like to call him suho, because he really is a suho or guardian. Being a leader is really hard, I can see it, people can see it. Even though being a boyband leader doesn't need to fullfill people expectations (like corporate leader for example) but he still need to to work harder than others. He needs to be the one who starts everthing, the one who knows everything, the one who thinks more than other member. Being a trainee for 7 years is a hard work too, I know you guys can see it. It's worth, it is, but it doesn't mean it is not hard. Sometimes I just want to say all the thank you's to him, just so he knows that he did work hard and we are thankful of that. But seeing how garing and jayus he is, stops me. I think being garing is one of his trials to get closer to other members, but cmon it's been five years isn't it? I just know you exo this past months but seeing all of your jayusness, it's really cringy. It's ok tho you are still our cute bunny and strong guardian with damn so good voice and beautiful face.
That's three, six more to go.
Or should I do ot12? hmm 考えています。
Having an idol from south korea is really different than another country. You get to see their 'true' self behind the scenes, like on a variety shows or reality shows. They maybe scripted, but I think sometimes they act like they usually do in real life. Seeing (and analysing) this, I've conclusion on exo, they have their own characters based on what they show on (beside performing) and off stage. This is purely my own subjective opinion, so you can either agree or not. But I'm sure you are in the same ship with me on this one, exo-ls.
I was about to write this on full english but some words are better said in indonesian, so I'll mix it. So suho oppa if you see this then well contact me for translation ok? Ok.
1. Lay aka yixing
He's pure af! Sometimes at interviews or shows he was so quite like he didn't give that much attention, or he doesn't laugh when other people laugh, so he looks like a songong person. But naaaah this one is totally wrong. He just doesn't get it. Or maybe just about to comprehend what others are saying. I saw a lot of MCs are bullying him because he looked like he doesn't like to be treated like that, or he looked so songong. His face is like that thooooo. Stop bullying him pleaseeee omo. I think he's really sweet, and really care with others members. seeing that he is the only chinese member left, I feel like we need to encourage him more. He is just a pure hearted man with songong face, but talented af and likes dolls. Oh, and receh. Trust me.
2. D.O aka kyungsoo
I really like to call him kyungsoo rather dan D.O bcs idk it just fits him better. He is really hard to read, I also have difficulties on explaining what about him, but I'll try. He's not that easy to show his feelings, like there are times he just sit still when other members are rollin on the floor laughing. Maybe he doesn't find it that funny, idk what's going on in his mind. But it doesn't mean he's bad thoooo. He also has a really pure heart, but not soft (i guess?). He likes to hit other members, but I think that's what's lovable from him. We need that kind of person in our life, the one who will just throw punches at us, and tell us if we do wrong straight on face. He is also talented in acting, I can see him on different genres in the future. Having a lot of actor friends also prove that he is not as bad as he looks, you just need to know him deeper. Maybe word 'manly' fits him, but for me it just doesn't work. He's my sweet smol heart shaped lips creature. He is not manly for me, and only me. I really love this smol creature. God if I can't have him then can You give me the one that's like him? Thank you.
3. Suho aka junmyeon
At first I like to call him junmyeon (bcs he said he likes girls who calls him that) but I like to call him suho, because he really is a suho or guardian. Being a leader is really hard, I can see it, people can see it. Even though being a boyband leader doesn't need to fullfill people expectations (like corporate leader for example) but he still need to to work harder than others. He needs to be the one who starts everthing, the one who knows everything, the one who thinks more than other member. Being a trainee for 7 years is a hard work too, I know you guys can see it. It's worth, it is, but it doesn't mean it is not hard. Sometimes I just want to say all the thank you's to him, just so he knows that he did work hard and we are thankful of that. But seeing how garing and jayus he is, stops me. I think being garing is one of his trials to get closer to other members, but cmon it's been five years isn't it? I just know you exo this past months but seeing all of your jayusness, it's really cringy. It's ok tho you are still our cute bunny and strong guardian with damn so good voice and beautiful face.
That's three, six more to go.
Or should I do ot12? hmm 考えています。
Sunday, May 21, 2017
Happy Birthday 오리 리다
This is my first post about this group, and finally I am telling the world, I am an EXO-L. Never thought I'd fall this deep into korean, but I am, so why don't I enjoy it?
It's May 22th, and our leader, Kim Junmyeon aka Suho is having a birthday today. Chanyeol even posted a birthday party pic on his IG and everyone showed up except Yixing. Damn I miss him but I can't do anything:( this is an unrelatable post, I'll just keep going.
Everytime I like an idol, korean or american, on their birthday, we supposed to feel happy for him, but I don't. I always feel sad. It is not because I can't say happy birthday to him, it's because I can't say how thankful I am to him. I feel like living as a superstar is really hard. They gave up their free lives, they can't even show up in public as usual. They can't read social media freely without finding a single insult. They need to act as procedure, or else they will find their consequences. It is ok as lomg as they are happy, but that's the problem. No one knows they are either happy or not. I can't ask them directly, and I can't tell them I am supporting them, and I can't say there are alot of people feeling thankful to them. That's what I am sad about. They had a really tough life, but I can't do anything. Sometimes, sometimes I wish I know them in person, and they are not this famous, but having the same attitude. But then I remember, I won't even know them if they're not famous, as same as they don't even know me.
But still, I'm so grateful I know you, and thank you for your hardwork until this day. Keep your chin up, you look good smiling. 상일촉해 사랑해 는 오리 리다 김존면💕
It's May 22th, and our leader, Kim Junmyeon aka Suho is having a birthday today. Chanyeol even posted a birthday party pic on his IG and everyone showed up except Yixing. Damn I miss him but I can't do anything:( this is an unrelatable post, I'll just keep going.
Everytime I like an idol, korean or american, on their birthday, we supposed to feel happy for him, but I don't. I always feel sad. It is not because I can't say happy birthday to him, it's because I can't say how thankful I am to him. I feel like living as a superstar is really hard. They gave up their free lives, they can't even show up in public as usual. They can't read social media freely without finding a single insult. They need to act as procedure, or else they will find their consequences. It is ok as lomg as they are happy, but that's the problem. No one knows they are either happy or not. I can't ask them directly, and I can't tell them I am supporting them, and I can't say there are alot of people feeling thankful to them. That's what I am sad about. They had a really tough life, but I can't do anything. Sometimes, sometimes I wish I know them in person, and they are not this famous, but having the same attitude. But then I remember, I won't even know them if they're not famous, as same as they don't even know me.
But still, I'm so grateful I know you, and thank you for your hardwork until this day. Keep your chin up, you look good smiling. 상일촉해 사랑해 는 오리 리다 김존면💕
Sunday, February 26, 2017
One Direction On The Road Again Tour 2015: Part Two
Akhirnya konser pun selesai. Aku yang berjanji untuk pulang bersama teman-temanku yang lain yang berpisah tadi, saling menghubungi agar bertemu di suatu tempat. Aku yang tiba duluan menunggu yang lain sambil membuka handphone-ku,mengecek jika ada pesan penting yang masuk, karena selama konser berlangsung sangat susah sekali mendapatkan sinyal. Setelah membalas semua pesan, aku membuka twitter, jika saja salah satu personil men-tweet konser hari ini. Namun yang kulihat malah berita buruk.
Konser hari itu yang tidak diikuti oleh Zayn karena Ia mengalami masalah kesehatan, ternyata konser pertama yang akan menjadi lanjutan konser-konser selanjutnya tanpanya. Ya, Zayn memutuskan untuk keluar dari One Direction, dilihat dari pos facebook One Direction.
Konser hari itu yang tidak diikuti oleh Zayn karena Ia mengalami masalah kesehatan, ternyata konser pertama yang akan menjadi lanjutan konser-konser selanjutnya tanpanya. Ya, Zayn memutuskan untuk keluar dari One Direction, dilihat dari pos facebook One Direction.
I was devastated.
That day, it was supposed to be the happiest day of my life, the time when I finally meet them But it crushed to the ground.
Sampe udah pulang pun masih kepikiran, benarkah berita ini? Apa semua cuma prank?
Ternyata semua memang benar, dan 1D pun melanjutkan konsernya tanpa Zayn. Sedih memang, namun Zayn menunjukkan bahwa memang sudah saatnya Ia harus keluar, dan sebagai fans harus tetap mendukung apapun keputusannya.
1D pun tak lama memutuskan untuk hiatus, setelah mengeluarkan single terakhir berjudul 'History'. Hiatus memang, namun apakah 1D akan kembali dan kapan, masih tidak ada yang tahu. Masing-masing member pun saat ini sudah memiliki kesibukan masing-masing. Aku bersyukur, masih bisa diberi kesempatan untuk melihat mereka dari jarak dekat, bisa merasakan euphoria menonton bersama sesama penggemar. Dan jika masih diberi kesempatan, semoga bisa merasakannya kembali, walaupun entah kapan.
Ps. this post has already past its due hehehe I can't even remember all the details, because it was two years ago. But I wrote the first part so I think I have to finish it.
Link to One Direction Facebook:
I am back
Hello! I am so happy right now, because I haven't been able to access this account for a long time, and thank God its accessable now. It's so weird tho, at first they cant verify that I am the owner of this acc even though I have the email but suddenly they can. Alhamdulillah.
I made a wordpress account because I thought I won't be able to write here anymore, but now that I can, well I will try my best to be active on both. The writings will be different or the same, I haven't think about it yet.
But most of all, thank God, this acc is back!
I made a wordpress account because I thought I won't be able to write here anymore, but now that I can, well I will try my best to be active on both. The writings will be different or the same, I haven't think about it yet.
But most of all, thank God, this acc is back!
Friday, March 18, 2016
Thank you
Hai, sudah lama sekali gak nulis disini. Berapa bukan kemarin sedang sangat hectic, jadi gak sempet buat nulis. Mau nulis apa juga gak tau hehe. Dan beberepa hari ini, suatu kejadian yang sangat tidak terbayangkan terjadi di gue, kejadian. Aneh ya, sesuatu yang tidak pernah dibayangkan kejadian, malah terjadi, disaat sekarang harusnya lagi sibuk-sibuknya skripsi.
Jujur, hal yang terjadi ini sangat mempengaruhi kehidupan gue. Ini hal yang sangat bikin gue down seumur-umur, kayaknya. Tapi yang alhamdulillahnya, gue punya banyak orang yang mensupport gue.
Gak cuma satu atau dua, tapi banyak, dan mereka menghargai posisi gue. Bermacam-macam saran dilakukan sama temen-temen gue buat ngasih tau apa yang seharusnya gue lakukan. Seneng banget rasanya masih banyak yang peduli sama gue.
Jujur, gue merasa gue menemukan temen gue yang bener-bener ya disini, di kampus. Awalnya gue merasa karena ya mungkin sering bareng jadi ya merasa deket. Ternyata ngga juga, buktinya ya ini. Saat ini, kalau misalnya gue lagi kayak gini dan temen-temen gue ga ada, gue ga tau deh bakal gimana. Yang pasti gue akan sangat jatuh, lebih jatuh dari sekarang.
Alhamdulillah, Allah masih mempertemukan gue dengan orang-orang ini, dan gue sangat bersyukur. Semoga kebaikan kalian dibalas sama Allah yah gaes. I love you so.
Jujur, hal yang terjadi ini sangat mempengaruhi kehidupan gue. Ini hal yang sangat bikin gue down seumur-umur, kayaknya. Tapi yang alhamdulillahnya, gue punya banyak orang yang mensupport gue.
Gak cuma satu atau dua, tapi banyak, dan mereka menghargai posisi gue. Bermacam-macam saran dilakukan sama temen-temen gue buat ngasih tau apa yang seharusnya gue lakukan. Seneng banget rasanya masih banyak yang peduli sama gue.
Jujur, gue merasa gue menemukan temen gue yang bener-bener ya disini, di kampus. Awalnya gue merasa karena ya mungkin sering bareng jadi ya merasa deket. Ternyata ngga juga, buktinya ya ini. Saat ini, kalau misalnya gue lagi kayak gini dan temen-temen gue ga ada, gue ga tau deh bakal gimana. Yang pasti gue akan sangat jatuh, lebih jatuh dari sekarang.
Alhamdulillah, Allah masih mempertemukan gue dengan orang-orang ini, dan gue sangat bersyukur. Semoga kebaikan kalian dibalas sama Allah yah gaes. I love you so.
Thursday, January 7, 2016
Pesan untuk mahasiswa baru
Untuk kalian yang telah beruntung bisa berkuliah, dimanapun tempatnya, jangan pernah merasa menyesal, bahkan merasa salah jurusan. Kita berada di tempat tersebut pasti mempunyai suatu tujuan, dan tugas kita adalah mencari tujuan tersebut, dan menggunakannya dengan sebaik mungkin. Salah satunya adalah menguji kemampuan, baik dalam bidang akademik ataupun non akademik. Dalam bidang akademik, kemampuan kita diuji untuk bersaing secara sehat dengan teman-teman lain, baik dari latar belakang yang berhubungan dengan jurusan tersebut, baik pula yang tidak. Semua pintar jika belajar, tidak ada yang namanya 'pintar dari sananya'. Orang-orang yang biasa dipanggil dengan perkataan tersebut bukanlah mereka yang mempunyai keahlian dalam bidang tersebut dari lahir, namun mereka lebih dahulu mengenal dan mempelajari bidang tersebut daripada yang lainnya. Tekun dan rajin juga merupakan hal yang dapat menambah kemampuan dalam bidang tersebut. Dalam bidang akademik tidak hanya belajar di kelas, sering pula kampus mengadakan program pertukaran pelajar ke luar negeri, dan tentu saja kita dapat bersenang-senang sambil belajar. Dalam bidang non akademik, ada yang disebut dengan UKM atau Unit Kegiatan Mahasiswa. Bagi mereka yang baru masuk kuliah, jangan lupa untuk mengikuti salah satu UKM di kampus, karena kegiatan di luar kampus menjadi bekal yang baik untuk ke depannya. Hal tersebut dapat mencakup berbagai bidang, baik yang masih berhubungan dengan akademik, musik, olahraga, dan lain-lain. Kesempatan mengikuti UKM adalah jalan untuk mengetahui potensi diri, untuk mengetahui keahlian yang dimiliki oleh masing-masing. Dan siapa tahu, dapat menjadi ladang untuk menambah uang jajan bagi mereka yang merantau.
Tahun keempat ini sepertinya tidak mau cepat-cepat berakhir, karena masih banyak yang belum dilakukan. Tapi apa boleh buat, kata-kata 'lulus' sudah terus menghantui. Oleh karena itu, sebelum menumpuk di akhir, gunakan waktu sebaik-baiknya, dan nikmati masa kuliahmu!
Tahun keempat ini sepertinya tidak mau cepat-cepat berakhir, karena masih banyak yang belum dilakukan. Tapi apa boleh buat, kata-kata 'lulus' sudah terus menghantui. Oleh karena itu, sebelum menumpuk di akhir, gunakan waktu sebaik-baiknya, dan nikmati masa kuliahmu!
Sunday, August 30, 2015
Voluntarism
Semester 7!
Ga kerasa banget, pasti semua juga mengatakan hal yang sama. Namun beginilah, akhirnya masa-masa akhir di perkuliahan pun tiba (aaamiiin semoga tepat waktu). Rasanya kayak waktu SMA kelas 3 udah mau lulus, ya ditambah 100 kali lagi lah pressurenya, hehe.
Liburan kemarin, karena angkatanku yang sudah tua maka tidak diizinkan lagi untuk mengikuti kepanitiaan PMB tingkat fakultas dan jurusan, dan aku pula tak berminat untuk mengikuti kegiatan PMB tingkat universitas, maka jadilah aku mengisi liburanku di rumah saja. Sekitar 2 bulan liburan, 1 bulan pertama hanya kuiisi dengan santai-santai di rumah. Lama-lama bosan juga, walaupun berkumpul dengan keluarga, namun tidak ada yang dilakukan. Aku sempat menyesal karena tidak mendaftar kegiatan magang dari bulan-bulan sebelumnya. Namun saat sedang mencari-cari kegiatan di Twitter, aku menemukan satu kegiatan yang mungkin bisa aku ikuti, yaitu volunteer atau relawan.
Relawan atau volunteer yang dimaksud ini bukan yang berhubungan dengan kegiatan kemanusiaan ataupun sosial, melainkan panitia ‘tarikan’ untuk acara tertentu, dan untungnya aku dapat mengikuti dua acara yang berbeda tema, tema bisnis dan entertaiment.
Persyaratan untuk menjadi volunteer cukuplah mudah, hanya mengirimkan CV dan terkadang beserta foto ukuran full body. Mendekati acara, kita akan dihubungi oleh pihak panitia mengenai apakah kita masih bersedia untuk mengikuti kegiatan tersebut apa tidak, karena mungkin ada satu dan lain hal. Setelah dinyatakan bersedia, kita akan dikumpulkan biasanya satu atau dua hari sebelum hari H, untuk melakukan briefing. Saat briefing, kita akan diberikan pilihan bagian-bagian apa saja yang akan kita pilih, apa saja yang kita lakukan pada hari H sesuai bagian yang kita pilih, diberikan denah tempat, serta jika tidak disertakan pada poster awal, akan diberitahukan apa saja yang kita dapatkan selama dan setelah acara tersebut. Tergantung kebijakan setiap acara, namun biasanya yang kita dapatkan adalah makan selama acara, kaos, ID card, sertifikat, serta allowance. Namun kembali lagi, semuanya tergantung kebijakan EO setiap acara.
Dan pada hari H kita tinggal mengerjakan sesuai bagian kita, sama seperti jika mengikuti kepanitiaan di kampus atau sekolah. Namun bedanya, rekan kerja kita adalah orang-orang yang kebanyakan baru saja kita kenal saat hari itu juga, walaupun ada beberapa yang memang mendaftar bersama teman. Namun lebih enak sendirian, karena benar-bener mengenal orang-orang baru, suasana baru, dan belajar, bagaimana menghadapi orang-orang yang berbeda, bagaimana mengambil yang baik, dan tidak mengikuti yang buruknya.
Contohnya? Bagaimana bisa bersikap ramah kepada orang yang baru dikenal, juga menghadapi keadaan atau pertanyaan yang tidak terduga, atau bagiku, keliling suatu daerah sendirian, agar bisa pulang ke rumah dari tempat yang asing. Kita juga bisa belajar bahwa ada kondisi dimana suatu hal yang tidak terorganisir dapat menimbulkan hal buruk yang berantai, yang menimbulkan efek buruk ke banyak orang. Dari kedua hal yang baru ini, banyak pengalaman, banyak pelajaran yang bisa diambil. Setiap acara ada kekurangannya, pasti, dan penyesalan mengikuti pun pasti ada. Namun kembali lagi, bagaimana kita hanya harus mengambil yang baiknya, dan berusaha tidak melakukan hal buruk yang sama jika kita diposisikan sebaliknya.
Buat yang belum pernah ikutan, silahkan mencoba apapun lowongan volunteer yang terbuka, namun tetap memilih dengan cerdas, tidak hanya ingin ketemu artis atau mendapat uang, ada yang berpikiran seperti itu, namun tidak bagiku. Volunteer bukanlah itu. Berada dalam satu kegiatan yang mengharuskan bekerja sama dengan orang-orang yang berbeda adalah pengalaman yang sangat berharga, dan membentuk kita ke depannya. Dan pula, siapa tau akan membawa oleh-oleh ke rumah! :D
Selamat mencari!
Ga kerasa banget, pasti semua juga mengatakan hal yang sama. Namun beginilah, akhirnya masa-masa akhir di perkuliahan pun tiba (aaamiiin semoga tepat waktu). Rasanya kayak waktu SMA kelas 3 udah mau lulus, ya ditambah 100 kali lagi lah pressurenya, hehe.
Liburan kemarin, karena angkatanku yang sudah tua maka tidak diizinkan lagi untuk mengikuti kepanitiaan PMB tingkat fakultas dan jurusan, dan aku pula tak berminat untuk mengikuti kegiatan PMB tingkat universitas, maka jadilah aku mengisi liburanku di rumah saja. Sekitar 2 bulan liburan, 1 bulan pertama hanya kuiisi dengan santai-santai di rumah. Lama-lama bosan juga, walaupun berkumpul dengan keluarga, namun tidak ada yang dilakukan. Aku sempat menyesal karena tidak mendaftar kegiatan magang dari bulan-bulan sebelumnya. Namun saat sedang mencari-cari kegiatan di Twitter, aku menemukan satu kegiatan yang mungkin bisa aku ikuti, yaitu volunteer atau relawan.
Relawan atau volunteer yang dimaksud ini bukan yang berhubungan dengan kegiatan kemanusiaan ataupun sosial, melainkan panitia ‘tarikan’ untuk acara tertentu, dan untungnya aku dapat mengikuti dua acara yang berbeda tema, tema bisnis dan entertaiment.
Persyaratan untuk menjadi volunteer cukuplah mudah, hanya mengirimkan CV dan terkadang beserta foto ukuran full body. Mendekati acara, kita akan dihubungi oleh pihak panitia mengenai apakah kita masih bersedia untuk mengikuti kegiatan tersebut apa tidak, karena mungkin ada satu dan lain hal. Setelah dinyatakan bersedia, kita akan dikumpulkan biasanya satu atau dua hari sebelum hari H, untuk melakukan briefing. Saat briefing, kita akan diberikan pilihan bagian-bagian apa saja yang akan kita pilih, apa saja yang kita lakukan pada hari H sesuai bagian yang kita pilih, diberikan denah tempat, serta jika tidak disertakan pada poster awal, akan diberitahukan apa saja yang kita dapatkan selama dan setelah acara tersebut. Tergantung kebijakan setiap acara, namun biasanya yang kita dapatkan adalah makan selama acara, kaos, ID card, sertifikat, serta allowance. Namun kembali lagi, semuanya tergantung kebijakan EO setiap acara.
Dan pada hari H kita tinggal mengerjakan sesuai bagian kita, sama seperti jika mengikuti kepanitiaan di kampus atau sekolah. Namun bedanya, rekan kerja kita adalah orang-orang yang kebanyakan baru saja kita kenal saat hari itu juga, walaupun ada beberapa yang memang mendaftar bersama teman. Namun lebih enak sendirian, karena benar-bener mengenal orang-orang baru, suasana baru, dan belajar, bagaimana menghadapi orang-orang yang berbeda, bagaimana mengambil yang baik, dan tidak mengikuti yang buruknya.
Contohnya? Bagaimana bisa bersikap ramah kepada orang yang baru dikenal, juga menghadapi keadaan atau pertanyaan yang tidak terduga, atau bagiku, keliling suatu daerah sendirian, agar bisa pulang ke rumah dari tempat yang asing. Kita juga bisa belajar bahwa ada kondisi dimana suatu hal yang tidak terorganisir dapat menimbulkan hal buruk yang berantai, yang menimbulkan efek buruk ke banyak orang. Dari kedua hal yang baru ini, banyak pengalaman, banyak pelajaran yang bisa diambil. Setiap acara ada kekurangannya, pasti, dan penyesalan mengikuti pun pasti ada. Namun kembali lagi, bagaimana kita hanya harus mengambil yang baiknya, dan berusaha tidak melakukan hal buruk yang sama jika kita diposisikan sebaliknya.
Buat yang belum pernah ikutan, silahkan mencoba apapun lowongan volunteer yang terbuka, namun tetap memilih dengan cerdas, tidak hanya ingin ketemu artis atau mendapat uang, ada yang berpikiran seperti itu, namun tidak bagiku. Volunteer bukanlah itu. Berada dalam satu kegiatan yang mengharuskan bekerja sama dengan orang-orang yang berbeda adalah pengalaman yang sangat berharga, dan membentuk kita ke depannya. Dan pula, siapa tau akan membawa oleh-oleh ke rumah! :D
Selamat mencari!
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
Right the Wrongs
Been a long time, huh? Well I've got my hands really tied up for last semester, so when it finished, I really throw myself into off zone, like really off. All I do is sleep, eat, watch, and repeat. Well something's come up sometimes but not much, and something that I can really be defined as what did I do on my holiday, is watching.
In past months I've been laid my eyes into something that I will always say 'take time too much' but kinda make me addicted right now. It is a TV serial. And since my friends have the same hobby, so we shared some good TV series for our holiday, which the one that makes me addicted.
I've watch several series, such as NCIS, well this one is an exception because I've been watching it for long, other examples are iZombie, Wayward Pines, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, American Horror Stories, and recently I am watching Arrow. This one are things that I will talk about.
I am not good as a story teller so I am just gonna describe it as I got it. Arrow is a superhero series which are produced by DC Comics, and if I am not mistaken it has a connection with another DC series which is The Flash. In my opinion this is one of the heroes who makes sense a little bit, he got his strenght because he is trained, he got his tools becauuse he is rich. But there is nothing that makes sense in superheroes movies. It takes a place Starling City and The Glades as the capital, and tells the story the richest family which also built the city, The Queens. Apparently living with money everywhere has not been easy for them, as well as living in Starling City. So a hero named Arrow which is the son of The Queens family decided to right the wrongs.
At first I caught up to this one because I have nothing else to watch (lol) and this one seems good. Well it is. But in my opinion, it has something that I can really guess it in entire movie, well not actually but there are things that I don't like in superhero movie. That is what I am gonna tell you, and there are no purposes to tell this film is bad because it's not, it's just not my style.
First of all is the nemesis. It is always been someone whose closest to you. Whether a family, a friend, or your co-workers. Second is they like to make stories which relive the dead, or reconnect with the missing link. It makes their stories very long, this connected to this who owes this who killed this and so on. In the end it is just a circle of revenge. The next one is because this is a TV series, so it has seasons, and every season they point out only some characters, if A point out in season 1, then in season 2 it will be B, and so on. Then, they make answers in episode A not straight in that episode, but in episode G for example. That is why we have to keep watching it to find the answers, and it is what kept me watch Arrow, to find the answers. Even with finding one, I make one, again. And in this step I think I do not have any question that need to be answered left, not watching it is an easy thing to do. Well you can still live without even knowing what the authors mean on this series, but the urge sometimes are so massive to be avoided. That is my opinion on my recent activity.
Once again, I am not saying that Arrow is a horrible TV series, you yourself have the choice of what you like and dislike, and for you superhero fans, this is just the right TV series to spend your holidays.
As Oliver Queen always says, right my wrongs if there's any. Alao the reason I am writing this in English because I have lost my ability in languages and as I was saying in my older post the best way to keep a language is to use them, so this is me using it again, which I believe have mistakes. So again, right my wrongs, if there's any!
In past months I've been laid my eyes into something that I will always say 'take time too much' but kinda make me addicted right now. It is a TV serial. And since my friends have the same hobby, so we shared some good TV series for our holiday, which the one that makes me addicted.
I've watch several series, such as NCIS, well this one is an exception because I've been watching it for long, other examples are iZombie, Wayward Pines, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, American Horror Stories, and recently I am watching Arrow. This one are things that I will talk about.
I am not good as a story teller so I am just gonna describe it as I got it. Arrow is a superhero series which are produced by DC Comics, and if I am not mistaken it has a connection with another DC series which is The Flash. In my opinion this is one of the heroes who makes sense a little bit, he got his strenght because he is trained, he got his tools becauuse he is rich. But there is nothing that makes sense in superheroes movies. It takes a place Starling City and The Glades as the capital, and tells the story the richest family which also built the city, The Queens. Apparently living with money everywhere has not been easy for them, as well as living in Starling City. So a hero named Arrow which is the son of The Queens family decided to right the wrongs.
At first I caught up to this one because I have nothing else to watch (lol) and this one seems good. Well it is. But in my opinion, it has something that I can really guess it in entire movie, well not actually but there are things that I don't like in superhero movie. That is what I am gonna tell you, and there are no purposes to tell this film is bad because it's not, it's just not my style.
First of all is the nemesis. It is always been someone whose closest to you. Whether a family, a friend, or your co-workers. Second is they like to make stories which relive the dead, or reconnect with the missing link. It makes their stories very long, this connected to this who owes this who killed this and so on. In the end it is just a circle of revenge. The next one is because this is a TV series, so it has seasons, and every season they point out only some characters, if A point out in season 1, then in season 2 it will be B, and so on. Then, they make answers in episode A not straight in that episode, but in episode G for example. That is why we have to keep watching it to find the answers, and it is what kept me watch Arrow, to find the answers. Even with finding one, I make one, again. And in this step I think I do not have any question that need to be answered left, not watching it is an easy thing to do. Well you can still live without even knowing what the authors mean on this series, but the urge sometimes are so massive to be avoided. That is my opinion on my recent activity.
Once again, I am not saying that Arrow is a horrible TV series, you yourself have the choice of what you like and dislike, and for you superhero fans, this is just the right TV series to spend your holidays.
As Oliver Queen always says, right my wrongs if there's any. Alao the reason I am writing this in English because I have lost my ability in languages and as I was saying in my older post the best way to keep a language is to use them, so this is me using it again, which I believe have mistakes. So again, right my wrongs, if there's any!
FYI I just watched the episode that related to The Flash, and it is S02E09 - Three Ghosts, here's the trailer:
Sunday, June 21, 2015
Ambitions
It has been almost two years since my first attempt, and I failed it. I was in deep thinking, and finally decided to not follow this kind of program again. A year, two years passed by. Now it has come to this again. I meet again with the requirements. And just like the last, I really want it, but didn't give much effort. The result has not been released yet, but deep inside me, I will accepet it if the results came back the same as it ways before.
Monday, April 13, 2015
One Direction On The Road Again Tour 2015: Part One
Akhirnya tibalah hari yang ditunggu-tunggu itu. 25 Maret 2015. Aku sudah menukarkan tiketku pada hari sebelumnya, dan pada saat itu beruntung, loket penukaran tiket sangat sepi, tidak sampai 5 menit aku sudah mendapatkan tiketku. Aku berjanji dengan temanku bahwa kita akan berangkat sehabis dzuhur dari rumah masing-masing, karena rumah kami yang bisa dibilang memang dekat dengan Gelora Bung Karno. Namun kepanikan terjadi pada hari itu. Temanku yang lain yang telah berada di GBK semenjak pagi, bilang kalo udah penuh banget, udah ngantri. Saat itulah kami memutuskan untuk berangkat secepatnya. Di jalan pun sangat macet, dan aku mendengar poilisi lalu lintas berkata bahwa kemacetan ini karena ada konser. My favorite boyband concert, kataku dalam hati. Hihi.
Akhirnya sampailah aku disana, namun ternyata bis yang aku tumpangi lewat belakang GBK, dan aku harus memutar jauh. Tetapi ditengah jalan aku disapa seseorang yang ternyata tadi naik bis yang sama denganku dan ingin menonton juga. Akhirnya kami bersama-sama berjalan ke arah venue. Namun karena ia harus menunggu adiknya, kami berpisah dan aku melanjutkan perjalanan.
Akhirnya sampailah aku disana, namun ternyata bis yang aku tumpangi lewat belakang GBK, dan aku harus memutar jauh. Tetapi ditengah jalan aku disapa seseorang yang ternyata tadi naik bis yang sama denganku dan ingin menonton juga. Akhirnya kami bersama-sama berjalan ke arah venue. Namun karena ia harus menunggu adiknya, kami berpisah dan aku melanjutkan perjalanan.
Setelah sampai di GBK, walaupun keadaan hujan yang cukup deras, banyak sekali yang berjualan dari merchandise sampai makanan. Aku sangat menyesal tidak membeli salah satu merchandise yang dijual disana, karena kondisi tidak kondusif untuk berbelanja pikirku saat itu. Setelah bertemu dengan temanku, kami masuk ke dalam venue, dan ternyata harus mengantri lagi. Disitu lah keadaan mulai panas. Orang yang tidak sabar dan berdesak-desakan makin membuat keadaan tidak nyaman. Setelah hampir 2 jam mengantri, akhirnya kami masuk.
Keadaan di venue sudah cukup ramai, aku dan temanku segera menuju area festival kami, karena ingin berada paling depan. Tak lama aku sudah berada di tengah, namun makin lama hujan makin deras. Aku yang terakhir makan jam 12 siang meraa tidak kuat dan memutuskan untuk mundur ke belakang dan mencari minum, dan akhirnya berpisah dengan temanku hingga akhir konser. Konser ini merupakan penantian yang cukup lama. Aku masuk dari jam setengah 5 sore, dan ternyata mereka baru tampil pukul setengah 9 malam. Kami sudah basah kuyup kehujanan, kelaparan, haus dan semacamnya, namun jika beranjak akan hilang posisi yang bagusnya. Iklan-iklan yang ditayangkan untuk menemani penantian kami pun makin lama makin membosankan, karena hanya itu-itu saja.
Tepat jam setengah 9 malam, keluarlah 4 orang itu dari balik panggung. Ya, hanya Liam, Louis, Niall dan Harry, karena dikabarkan Zayn kembali ke Inggris due to stress. Tak apa, melihat 4 out of 5 pun sudah cukup menyenangkan. Penampilan dibuka dengan lagu Clouds yang membuat kami berteriak dan bernyanyi bersama. Liam berkata bahwa Jakarta so far is the loudest, tapi menurutku dia berkata hal itu di seluruh kota yang dia kunjungi hahaha. Aku tak bisa mengalihkan mataku dari mereka, menikmati saat-saat melihat mereka dari dekat, langsung. Setelah dipikir-pikir aku hanya sedikit ikut bernyanyi dan merekam video atau mengambil foto, karena sangat ingin menikmati saat-saat itu. Sungguh pengalaman yang luar biasa bisa menjadi bagian dari penonton One Direction On The Road Again Tour 2015, alhamdulillah.
Keadaan di venue sudah cukup ramai, aku dan temanku segera menuju area festival kami, karena ingin berada paling depan. Tak lama aku sudah berada di tengah, namun makin lama hujan makin deras. Aku yang terakhir makan jam 12 siang meraa tidak kuat dan memutuskan untuk mundur ke belakang dan mencari minum, dan akhirnya berpisah dengan temanku hingga akhir konser. Konser ini merupakan penantian yang cukup lama. Aku masuk dari jam setengah 5 sore, dan ternyata mereka baru tampil pukul setengah 9 malam. Kami sudah basah kuyup kehujanan, kelaparan, haus dan semacamnya, namun jika beranjak akan hilang posisi yang bagusnya. Iklan-iklan yang ditayangkan untuk menemani penantian kami pun makin lama makin membosankan, karena hanya itu-itu saja.
Tepat jam setengah 9 malam, keluarlah 4 orang itu dari balik panggung. Ya, hanya Liam, Louis, Niall dan Harry, karena dikabarkan Zayn kembali ke Inggris due to stress. Tak apa, melihat 4 out of 5 pun sudah cukup menyenangkan. Penampilan dibuka dengan lagu Clouds yang membuat kami berteriak dan bernyanyi bersama. Liam berkata bahwa Jakarta so far is the loudest, tapi menurutku dia berkata hal itu di seluruh kota yang dia kunjungi hahaha. Aku tak bisa mengalihkan mataku dari mereka, menikmati saat-saat melihat mereka dari dekat, langsung. Setelah dipikir-pikir aku hanya sedikit ikut bernyanyi dan merekam video atau mengambil foto, karena sangat ingin menikmati saat-saat itu. Sungguh pengalaman yang luar biasa bisa menjadi bagian dari penonton One Direction On The Road Again Tour 2015, alhamdulillah.
Tak terasa 2 jam telah berlalu. Kukira mereka akan konser selama 3 jam lebih, ternyata tidak. Penampilan hari itu ditutup dengan lagu Best Song Ever, lalu mereka pun menghilang dari balik panggung. Aku pun mencari temanku untuk bersiap-siap pulang, dan menunggu yang lain untuk pulang bersama. Namun saat pulang ini lah, berita buruk tersebar.
Sunday, April 5, 2015
新しい経験
Hidup di tempat baru bersama orang-orang baru memang terlihat susah, but i went through it, and it was quite good. Orang-orang itu awalnya sama sekali tak kukenal, walaupun dari kampus yang sama bahkan fakultas yang sama. Pertemuan pertama sangat awkward, hanya diam yang dapat kami lakukan. Bayangkan, 21 orang dalam ruangan yang sama hanya terdiam. Sangat tidak enak. Aku pun sempat berpikir, apakah akan betah aku selama sebulan ke depan?
Akhirnya tiba hari keberangkatan kami. Di bis pun kami tak banyak ber interaksi, beruntung aku satu bis dengan salah satu temanku yang berada di desa sebelah. Setelah sampai, kami langsung disambut oleh kepala desa di aula desa.
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| kordes dan DPL |
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| being a girl for a day |
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| final result |
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| trying to make a barbecue party, but failed because of rain:( |
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| tattoo-ing LOL |
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| we can play soccer in yard beside our home |
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| this man had a show called Yahya FM :)) |
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| going thru bushes |
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| black metal wohooo \m/ |
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| with students of SDN 1 Beber |
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| with students of SDN 2 Beber |
Mulai dari toleransi, bagaimana menghargai satu sama lain dan tidak judge the book by its cover. Lalu mencoba hal-hal baru yang tak pernah ku lakukan sebelumnya, seperti menjadi pembawa acara pengajian. Aku juga mempelajari kehidupan di desa yang jauh dari kota, bagaimana susahnya hanya untuk membeli suatu barang karena tidak ada di desa tersebut. Naik colt bak dan truk yang lewat pun sudah biasa kami lakukan. Pengalaman yang sungguh menyenangkan, dan aku beruntung bisa berada di satu desa dengan mereka.
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| keluarga baru(?) |
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| Nusakambangan woooooh! |
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| happy birthday, sanchay {} |
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| disini nih yang bikin semua tumbang besoknya haha |
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| futsal bareng desa tetangga |
Bagi mereka yang belum melaksanakannya pasti merasa takut seperti apa yang ku rasakan sebelumnya. But in the end, i miss them so much.
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